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Really, in theory, if you’re going to copy someone and their dreams and hobbies, at least TRY to hide that you’re copying them.


xrachelvjordanx:

nofalsehope:

allwastedtime:

(…)If one day a partner does get Aids, which is an advanced stage of HIV, how far away are we talking about, months? Years? Now if I’m going in for annual screenings, and still test negative, and she has Aids in the future, did she hop in a Delorean and fuck me when I had my back turned? I guess I have been luck, those time travellers are tricksters I tell you. If someone I knew intimately does end up with Aids in the future, I’d receive a phone call, and go in for tests. It’s also law to inform sexual partners if you are infected with HIV, I think its called criminal transmission if you don’t and it could fall under three categories, intentional, reckless and accidental, but I don’t need to get into this right now. But like any compassionate human being, I would be by said person’s side in support.

I’ve given you enough attention for one day. You are either a comedic genius or an ignorant fool, regardless you are coming off as the latter of the two.

I’m ignorant? Um, dont bother replying, but seriously, do you really think I believe you practice safe sex? If you did, I doubt you’d bother to get tested seeing as its 99.9% safe, secondly, do you really believe everyone else in the world thats edge follows the same procedures as you? I’m not gonna say “get aids and die” I’m saying girls in bars have it and knowingly give it away because theyre gonna die anyway, happens thousands of times a day, and itll happen to someone you know sooner or later, its outta control and theres nothing stopping it

This is seriously one of the most ignorant things I’ve read in a while.
“I’m saying girls in bars have it (AIDS) and knowingly give it away because theyre gonna die anyway, happens thousands of times a day” PLEASE provide me ONE legitimate source that claims that THOUSANDS of new cases of AIDS (and by AIDS, I think you mean HIV) are contracted EVERY DAY through “girls knowingly [giving] it away” by seducing people in bars.

I love xrachelvjordanx’s response. That being said, I wanna weigh in my two cents. And not on anything to do about being straight edge. I cannot comment on that because I’ve never practiced that type of clean lifestyle. But, I’m actually rather offended at some of the generalizations.

Yes, STD’s and STI’s are a risk factor of sex. Especially with promiscuity. A good portion of us hopefully learned that in 8th grade.  And I don’t want to play “the numbers game”, but by Golly, I’m gonna do it. 

I’m 24-years-old. I’m a girl. I’ve been with more than 10 people, but less than 20. I’ve had long term relationships. I’ve had one night stands. I’ve been cheated on. I’ve never once had a sexually transmitted disease or infection.  And that’s due to my conscious effort to be safe and aware. Now, you could argue that my admitting to having one night stands is not “safe”, and I cannot necessarily disagree. However, practicing “safe sex” isn’t just keeping your numbers low, wearing a condom every time or only having sex within a monogamous, committed relationship. It’s a myriad of factors and efforts that have allowed me to be somewhat “promiscuous” and still walk away clean.

  1. Birth control. Whether it be condoms or the pill.  No, the pill doesn’t prevent the transfer of diseases and infections, but it does prevent pregnancy in what they say “99.9% of the time”. Condoms however, are a good preventative measure for diseases and infections. It also aids in preventing pregnancy. And y’know, with all the awesome textures out there in condoms today, it kind of twists it up a little. 
  2. Sexual education. I cannot stress enough how supportive of teaching TRUE sexual education in schools I am. In a day and age when children are beginning to have sex at younger and younger ages, they need to be educated on the WHOLE picture. This abstinence only education is NOT informative. It’s causing kids, teenagers and adults to go in blindly. You don’t want to take your big History final without studying the material, do you? Odds are, you’re going to fail. Sex is basically the same concept. Go in unprepared and you’re likely to mess up. It’s that simple.
  3. Sexual awareness. To put it bluntly, we humans are animals. We have desires and needs. And that’s okay. I’m all for that. But, be aware. Be aware that there ARE people out there who are uneducated. Be aware that you’re the only person in charge of your well being. It’s better to be over aware, over prepared and over concerned when having sex than to rely on your partner to be for the both of you. Before I was married and when I wasn’t in a committed relationship, I knew things happened. *I* was the one to carry condoms. I was almost always the one to buy condoms when I was in a relationship. There have been a few times where I relied on my blundering partners to take initiative to be prepared and a lot of times I was disappointed. 
  4. Know the resources and tools available to you in your area. This part is sexual education and awareness rolled into one neat little package. A LOT of people don’t know about Planned Parenthood in the US. And this is sad. I am a BIG supporter of PP. They offer SO many sexual health tools for little to no cost. Here are the main ones (and some that I’ve used on many occasions):

    • Free birth control - no matter the age - for those who cannot afford it. This is the one I love. The Planned Parenthood Clinic that I use to go to back home was ALWAYS so helpful. I could walk-in once a year, no appointment necessary, and get a year’s supply of birth control. And they don’t just offer one type of birth control pill. They offer an array of them. Low dose, low hormone, to the kinds with different types of hormones. And they work with you on trying to figure out which pill works best with your body. You walk out with a bag full of birth control pills and condoms. And they don’t just do free birth control for those who are sexual active. You can talk to them about getting this free birth control for skin problems or hormonal problems causing heavy menstruation cycles or erratic cycles. It is truly beautiful. 
    • Free STD and STI screening to those who cannot afford it. And this is a BIG one. There is NO excuse for you not to get screened regularly. The service is offered to you for free in the same place that you get free birth control. Almost always when you go into the PP Clinic to talk about birth control and you answer “yes” to be sexually active, they take you right in and draw your blood and have you pee in a cup. It’s sad how I found out this free screening was offered. When I went in a few years ago for my yearly haul of birth control they took me in to take my blood and to pee in a cup. I asked them what this was for and the sweet nurse said it bluntly, “For STD and STI screenings, dear. You gotta be safe!” I chuckled and naturally I asked in return, “what does this cost?” to which she informed me that it was free. Beautiful! Most results you get back before you’re done with your visit. For the ones that take a few days (like the HIV screening) you can state on the medical form you fill out upon arrival how you’d like them to contact you. And here’s the biggy, you can choose for them to contact you “anonymously”. You’re a teenager and don’t want your parents to know you visited the clinic. If something comes up on your results, they need a way to contact you. You can tell them to a) leave a message on the machine or with whoever answers the phone or to not do so. B) If you choose to allow them to leave a message, you can specify a “code word” the caller uses to discreetly let you know whose calling. A friend of mine had her “code word” set so that if the clinic did have to call, they’d say that it was a counselor from a Christian Teens organization. Discretion, I love it. 
    • Here’s a great one, Plan B. I’ve, unfortunately had to use the Plan B pill. (Keep your opinions on this to yourselves, please.) Twice, within 8 years, actually. You can walk-in to the clinic any day during business hours and request the Plan B pill for just $10. No tax. Ten freaking dollars. As opposed to going to the pharmacy and having to pay $50 or more, plus tax. There is no age restrictions like with at the pharmacy. All they ask is when the unprotected sex occurred. And that’s due to your own personal benefit. We all know that Plan B works best if taken within 24 hours of unprotected sex. However, it CAN still be effective up to 72 hours after. They don’t want you wasting your money if it’s been a week since the condom broke. 
    • Other services offered at the Planned Parenthood Clinic for little to no cost: Breast Cancer Screenings. Procedures for preventing cervical cancer. Female infertility issues. Menopause resources. Menstruation issues. Ovarian Cancer issues. PAP smears. HPV screenings and tests. Pelvic exams. Urinary Tract Infection treatments. Yeast infection treatments. 
    • Check out everything they have to offer, online resources and to find a location near you at http://www.plannedparenthood.org/

I find it rather rude and idiotic that one of the previous posters said: “[G]irls in bars have it [AIDs] and knowingly give it away because they’re gonna die anyway, happens thousands of times a day.” So, basically you’re saying that “girls in bars” are serial murderers? Generalizing that it’s just girls going around, carelessly spreading diseases and infections is ABSOLUTELY revolting to me. Even more revolting is saying that they INTENTIONALLY spread it. Completely and utterly asinine. I’m not saying that it doesn’t happen, nor that girls haven’t done this, but guys are more likely to be a carrier and are ABSOLUTELY just as likely to intentionally spread HIV/AIDs. (Also, let me throw a little more knowledge this way about the HIV infection: it is not a death sentence anymore. There are a metric fuckton of resources out there that can help HIV infected people lead happy, successful and LONG lives.)

“Of overall chlamydia diagnoses reported in 2009, the rate of infection among women was almost three times higher than the rate among men: 592.2 cases per 100,000 population compared to a rate of 219.3 among men. This is thought to be due to the higher number of women screened for chlamydia. For gonorrhea, the rate among women was 105.5 (cases per 100,000 population) compared to a rate of 91.9 among men. The rate of primary and secondary stage syphilis was higher among men - 7.8 cases (per 100,000) were reported for men in 2009, compared to 1.4 for women.“ (source, http://www.avert.org/std-statistics-america.htm)

Uh-huh. I see. So basically, what I’ve read is… the reason why women have high numbers as compared to men is because *we’re* the ones going out and getting screened. Damn, us women are so careless.  

I’ve also come to learn, as I expected, that both men and women are the culprit in the spread of STDs and STIs. Imagine that…

As for the spread of HIV and AIDs, a previous poster made a good point: to KNOWINGLY have the HIV infection or AIDs virus and not offer full disclosure of it to your partner and then transmitting it to them is considered Criminal Transmission. Now, there are different types of transmission and I’m not going to get into that, if you want to read more: go here http://www.avert.org/criminal-transmission.htm. I’m focusing on the without a doubt Criminal Transmission. It’s a criminal offense. You can, and probably will, go to jail. That scares people. Not all, but most. As it stand, men are more frequently to be a carrier of HIV/AIDs. Yes, instances of women being a carrier are getting more and more common, but as it stands, today, men are “in the lead”, so to speak. Now, as we learned earlier, women are more likely to be screened for sexually transmitted diseases and infections. Again, we are SO careless.

Want some real-life stories? Okay!

A few years ago, a once close friend of mine (let’s call her, “A”, shall we?) formed a sort of no-strings-attached, sexual “fling” with a guy (we’ll call him, “B”). Now, ‘A’wasn’t a virgin, she’s had sex in the past, but by no means was she a ‘slut’. She worked hard at two jobs, moved out of her parent’s house when she was 17, and only drank on weekends. She met “B” and was somewhat smitten and decided to have some fun without some of the messy attachments of a relationship, which she had no time for. No foul there. “A” hadn’t had sex in at least 6 months and was VERY conscious to get screened after every new partner. She knew, with 100% certainty that she was clean. Insert her fling with “B”. It lasted two or three weeks and she was done. They only had sex a few times, but “B” was her only partner. After about a week after the fling ended, she did her usual thing - go to the clinic and get tested. To her surprise, she had Chlamydia! Luckily, it was solved with a few rounds of antibiotics and a little discomfort. But, her being the responsible person she was, decided to inform “B” of this problem. He denied up and down that he had Chlamydia and called her every name in the book. Spread around town that she had an STI and all Hell broke loose. For a while, she had somewhat of a Scarlet A marked on her forehead. And needless to say, it devastated her. In my mind, this wasn’t fair. And more than likely, “B” probably still has Chlamydia to this day. Because he wasn’t careful and educated.

Another story? Here’s a short one. I have a friend who has had upwards of 50 partners. Yeah, yeah, we know. Save it. But, y’know what? She’s never once contracted an STD or STI. Why you ask? Regular testing, regular practice of birth control and protection, awareness and education. Smart girl, don’t you think? So right there debunks any accusations that promiscuity directly goes hand-in-hand with “unsafe sex”. 

Safe sex is common sense. Girls, don’t have sex if you have a yeast infection. That can lead to giving your man “jock itch” (the male form of a yeast infection). Guys, don’t have sex with your lady if you have “jock itch”. It’s a yeast infection and you can pass to your partner and even give them a pretty nasty urinary tract infection along with a yeast infection. Ouch! Got a cold sore? Don’t go downstairs for oral until the infection has been treated. Cold sores are a form of herpes. And you CAN transmit that to the genital area causing, you guessed it(!), herpes. And we all know that’s impossible to get rid of. Just be smart.

Oh, and an interesting tidbit here. The man I’m married to? The man that I dated for 2.5 years and have been married to for almost a year? I met him during a one night stand. Yep, you heard right folks, we were a one night stand. -gasps all around!- We had a blundering one night stand, stayed up all night talking, and didn’t have sex again for two months. We became best friends. Spent every waking moment together - as friends. Not fuck buddies, not boyfriend/girlfriend. Friends. And it developed into something completely different. We developed an emotional bond and then, after a few months, decided to give a go. And look where we’re at now. Happily married, strong, in love, coming up on our one-year anniversary, and still the best of friends.

I don’t know. This post has become long and winded. Fact is, know your shit before you pass judgement and make stupid statements on the internet. 

Sex is pretty great. When approached with concern and care, it can be a healthy part of the human life.  

wanderlust.

I think I’ve figured it out, my problem. I’m one of those people who constantly need to spread their wings. A “free spirit” of sorts. In short, I can’t be in one place for any sort of extended period because I’ll wilt. 

I moved all around West Virginia these past few years. I always ended back at my mother’s nest because I always crave my mother. She’s the person I call when I cry. She’s my Mother Hen.

I’ve always compared myself to a bird. Especially when times were hard, I related so well. But, I got settled down for a while. My feathers weren’t rustled. I was… for lack of a better term, tired. Tired of always running. Tired my desires and my dreams constantly changing. I didn’t settle at all, not in that sense, but I did calm down.

But, these past few weeks. That itch is back. To move. To go. To change. I’m stuck. I’m not happy. I’m just not happy.

Augustana’s “Boston” is on repeat. Although I don’t necessarily relate to the song  as a whole, I relate to the majority of it. But, I’m crying. Is that okay? I don’t know.

I saw all that West Virginia had to offer. It got stale. I’ve seen what Virginia has to offer. It’s stale.

I want out of this place.

I want Pittsburgh again. I want Boston again. I want New York again. I had it all lined out. Why did I give that up? I have such a wanderlust. I’ll never get rid of it, I know this. 

I can see myself maybe settling completely down in Virginia… later. It’s all right here. But, for now, I’m already over it… to the point that I hate it here. There’s no livelihood. There’s no benefits to the daily grind. Hell, at least in a place like New York or even Pittsburgh you have the array of characters. You go to the pub and you meet a new person every night. With a completely different story. With ideals and wonder and adventure and … something different. Here… it’s the same story. It’s either, “I’m from here, but got married and had a kid,” “I’m from derpaderp, but I got married, had a kid and moved here,” or “Oh, I go to school at ODU, but I’m from here, I’m married and I have a kid.” …really?

No one here has dreams that don’t revolve around being married and raising a family. And sure, that appeals to the side of me that loves my husband and wants a future with him. (And before anyone says anything, I can’t live without him. Okay, I can. But, I sure as fuck don’t want to.)

I’m twenty-fucking-four here, people. There’s a side to me that’s also in love with the open road and the unknown. In love with change and lights and cityfolk and adventure and everything that isn’t…this stupid, metropolitan mindsuck. 

“I am a bird that’s in need of grounding, I’m built to fly away, I never learned how to stay.”

Holy, Damn! The newest episode of Glee…

Did she just… I … the…. Santana… whaaaa?



That SONG… I must have it. The Glee version, that is. I’m not a big Adele fan, at all. I’ll sing along in the car or whatever, but I’ve never gone out of my way to listen to Adele. Maybe because all of her songs are essentially about being broken-hearted or second choice or alone and well, obviously I don’t relate to ANY of that. But, eh. Not an Adele post. Moving along.

Naya KILLED it. The end. Fin. End of story.

This whole Adele scene was spot on. It is so full of emotion that looks so real. Have to keep reminding myself they’re just damn good actors. I remember how devastating it was in high school when word would get out about someone having a crush on someone. Or… when it got out when I was sleeping with someone in my class and neither of us wanted it out (I had a college boyfriend and they were kinda of of friends; I had my reasons for doing what I did). How we still had to perform together, but it was SO hard not to sneak peaks at his face and wonder. And how deer-in-headlights he’d look because he just didn’t know what to do. Or if someone was whispering something to someone else, it was hard not to snap at them. …and just how big of a mess the whole thing was. Spot on in SO many different levels. It all blew over in a week or so. It was hot talk between a few people, and my boyfriend did find out (that didn’t really matter, though). What was really funny about the whole situation was that my mom grounded me. Not for having sex, she knew I was sexually active and that this guy was only the second or third guy so she was okay with that, she grounded me because I was cheating on a boyfriend. Ah, morals. Looking back, it was all so silly. But, at that time, God it hurt like Hell.


…Now to replay that part over and over and over again until the next episode.
Le sigh.

Why does Kristen Stewart keep getting lead parts in movies?!

alittle-more-free:

She’s so freaking terrible! Seriously, movie people, what is wrong with you?

Because, even though Kristen Stewart is a terrible actress, she has the cult of Twilight Lovers. And in the “industry”, more often than not, it’s not if people actually like what you make, it’s if they’re willing to spend money on it. Snow White and the Huntsman is going to be one of those movies people are willing to pay to see. Notice in the trailer that good ole K-Stew isn’t really featured in it and it’s all about the Evil Queen? My opinion is that they did that intentionally. They know that they’re going to get a lot of flack for having Kristen Stewart as Snow White. But, they’re trying to show you highlights of redeeming qualities so you’re willing to spend your $10-20 (popcorn not included) to see it anyway. And of course the Kristen Stewart fans will see it, because OMG SHE WAS IN TWILIGHT. SHE’S AMAZING. It’s a strategy about numbers and making bank, son.

Ignore the fact that I totally think someone like Emily Browning wouldn’ve been perfect for the role.

You could always be like me and refuse to go to the movies more than three times a year. Since 2009, these are the only movies I saw in theater:

  • The Uninvited
  • Watchmen
  • Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
  • Tim Burton’s Alice in Wonderland
  • Scott Pilgrim vs. The World
  • Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows pt. 1
  • X-Men First Class
  • Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows pt. 2

The only reason why I saw the movies is because I knew they’d be worth my money. Okay, The Uninvited I only saw cause two of my girlfriends dragged me to it and one of them paid for me, but it turned out to be all right.

This is why you should ignore the tragedy that is KS and see Snow White and the Huntsmen:

  1. Charlize Theron. hnnng.
  2. It’s an action-packed twist of Snow White. Everyone loves Snow White. And these action twist re-tells are hot right now. (Along with Comicbook-to-screen movies.)
  3. Chris Hemsworth.
  4. Charlize fucking Theron.

So, dear Tumblr users, hate on the mono-toned, dry, stale, cocky and emotionless Twilight star, Kristen Stewart, all you want. Odds are most of us will probably go see it. I know I more than likely will. Heh.

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chambergambit:

Snow White and the Huntsman - Trailer

Looks pretty good. I hate Kristen Stewart, so odds are she’ll suck the life out of this movie, just like every movie she’s previously done in her entire career. Then again, isn’t Snow White poisoned/asleep for a good part of it? :)

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Even though the hubs is all Chipmunk-faced and loopy and has four fresh holes in his face, these past few days have been wonderful.

I feel so bad that he’s hurting and I know he’s not really showing just how much he hurts, but I am glad that I’ve gotten him for five, uninterrupted days. We’ve been messing with each other and staying up incredibly late talking and snuggling while watching TV shows. And I’m just so happy he did it now instead of while on deployment so I can take care of him. I love taking care of him.

He really does make me feel so completely alive and in love. More and more each day. Even when we’re snipping at each other. He’s one of the most incredible people I know.

Ahh… <3


I’ve been watching that new show on the CW starring Sarah Michelle Gellar called “Ringer”. I’m only on the fourth episode, but I kind of really like it. Then again, I’ve always loved SMG. <3

no sleep till brooklyn: Fake "Clinic" Cons 17-Year-Old Girl

hannahisawful:

prolongedeyecontact:

An Indiana mother recently accompanied her daughter and her daughter’s boyfriend to one of Indiana’s Planned Parenthood clinics, but they unwittingly walked into a so-called “crisis pregnancy center” run by an anti-abortion group, one that shared a…

It seems to me that the best way to rectify the fact that we Americans, of all belief, religion, race and sexuality, are unknowingly forking over our hard-earned cash for wackjobs and funding their fake “clinics” is to stop paying taxes all together and demand we know where each and every cent is going.

Also, it’d be nice to choose what organization our tax dollars are going to. Don’t like funding Planned Parenthood or Social Security? Don’t give your tax dollars to them. Give them to the people fighting for guns to be standard issue at birth. Or to the education plan. You still have to pay the required percentage of taxes, but YOU have control over where YOUR money is going.

Seems to me talking isn’t helping - it’s only exacerbating the epidemic.

That being said, if only a couple of people stop paying taxes they’ll gladly just throw us in jail and leave us there. Power in numbers, people.

I’m touched.

Someone reblogged and critiqued my MTV Twilight Awards rant. I’m touched. Even though said poster has no clue what they’re talking about when it comes to me, personally.

Needless to say, opinions rule! And I appreciate someone taking time out of their day to negate my personal opinion and turning it into a personal attack against me. As touched as I am, no need to be vicious on a personal level and make assumptions about me. That’s just silly.

Lighten up, people. :)

Ask me why I didn’t watch the MTV Twilight, er uh, MOVIE awards.

Aw, Hell. I’ll go ahead and tell you:

  1. It’s MTV… the “M” isn’t suppose to stand for “movie” or “more bullshit TV”. It’s suppose to stand for “music”. So, why the FUCK are they having a movie awards show?
  2. I’m 23-years-old. Most people I know haven’t watched MTV since the late 90s. Including me.
  3. That being said. MTV is mostly reality TV for teens who have parents who don’t give enough of a shit about what they watch. So. Of fucking course Twilight is going to win everything. Twilight is geared toward that demographic. MTV is geared toward that demographic. You do the math.
  4. Sure, there were much better movies out there. But, I’ll tell you WHY these movies really didn’t get anything based on the votes for the MTV Movie Awards:
    • Inception - Phenomenal movie. Everything about it. Acting, plot, cinematography. Everything. But, it requires you to think. Use your brain. There’s virtually no sexual conduct. Nothing risque. Aside from using your brain. Which, is not very appealing to a demographic of 12-21 year-old girls. Or at least the majority of that demographic.
    • Black Swan - Also, another phenomenal movie of 2010. Twisted as all get out. There’s a lot more “risque” behavior in it. IE drug use, sexual experimentation and eating disorders. The strive to be perfect for a certain goal and still maintain some sort of self. However, this movie was marketed as twisted. This movie also forces you to think and dig deep. No parent who gives a shit is going to let their kid watch this. I’m 23 and when I told my mom I was going to see it, she gave me a funny look and said, “are you sure?” It’s a brilliant, twisted as fuck movie. But no one that is as deep as a puddle on the front porch is going to understand and enjoy it.
    • Harry Potter - although geared toward a younger demographic, the books started to come out while everyone in my generation was still in grade school or middle school. Same for the movies. As previously stated, I’m 23 and the final movie hasn’t even come out yet. We grew up with it. Years of anticipation for our dynamic group of heroes to battle the villain. But the difference between the Twilight “trilogy” and the Harry Potter trilogy is one thing: The message. Harry Potter teaches you that life isn’t easy. It’s tough. It’s not fair. But, there are people who care about you and will stand by you and help fight no matter what. Romantic love is a vague, underlying story in the later books. But, love, real love, the love you feel for friends and family is the message. Harry Potter shows that inner strength is okay to show. That when things don’t go your way, you have to pick yourself up and continue to live and fight. Be strong.

      Harry Potter doesn’t appeal to today’s teenager, where everything is about finding a boyfriend/girlfriend, sex and partying. Today’s media exploits our youth into thinking you have no identity without someone to sleep with. Twilight cashes in on that exploitation. I’ve seen the movies. I’ve read the books. There’s no depth. The main story is - girl wants boy. Girl needs boy. Girl is nothing without boy. And I think there’s something about vampires or werewolves or magical leprechauns in it. I’m not sure. If I wanted a girl-meets-boy story, I’d watch Lifetime.

  5. The fact that Kristen Stewart won best actress or whatever should tell you how dense the viewers and voters are. Even Megan Fox is a better actress. I’ve seen a lot of films with KS in it. Trying to give her a legitimate chance. And every movie is the same - no matter the premise. She’s stale. Unemotional. Monotone. Blank. Someone once said, “Well that’s part of her charm! That’s what makes her acting so great.” No. It doesn’t. It’s not charm. It’s bad acting. It’s the inability to act. None of her roles are convincing. She’s awkward in every single one - from “Speak”, to “The Runaways” to “Twilight” to her emotionally lacking acceptance speech… She is completely void of all skill. But, she’s stick thin and kind of cute (when she’s not talking). So she appeals.
  6. Did I mention it’s fucking MTV? I’m not going to shit too many bricks about it until Twilight starts to ninja awards at the Academy Awards. Needless to say, I don’t think 80% of the viewers watching the show last night even know who the fuck Gary Busey is.

Japan <3

I just wanted to let everyone know, that although I haven’t posted much (read: anything, really) that Japan is in my thoughts.

And not only Japan, but Libya, Bahrain, Egypt… just everywhere that there is chaos for whatever reason.

But, since Japan is the big news the past few days and all that’s gone on is of no fault of humans or politics - just Mother Nature - my thoughts are there for you, without prejudice. All of you. No matter what happened a million years ago, in a generation that no longer exists. I admire how graceful your culture has been handling things.

I have always absolutely adored the Japanese culture and style. It’s simple eloquence is calming. And I hate to see that ruined. But, I recognize that with time, you will rebuild. Rebuild and repair and heal with all the grace that you are.

I hope all that are lost are found. I hope all that are found are safe. And I hope all that are no longer in our physical presence are at peace and with warmth.

And for further proof I care, I have donated $10 via text. Which sadly, is all I can afford at this time until next pay day. So, for now, my thoughts are all I have to give. And I encourage all my friends and family to donate. 

Peace be with you all, even in such a terrible time. <3

My husband,

I love you. To the end of this universe and back. You are the Cheech to my Chong. The Turk to my JD. The Pinky to my Brain. The everything to my anything.

As much as we’ve dealt with, as much as we’ve been through, I’m always lucky to have you. But, I hate having you at a distance. I know I’ll move down to you in a few months, but that doesn’t dissolve the fact that you’ll be going to sea a lot. You’ll be away from me. I just wait for the days when you’re out of the Navy and we can have everyday together. You’re my best friend, the person I tell everything to, the person I run to first.

I have so many ideas for our home. To make it ours. To unify and put on display everything that we are and everything we’ll become.

I cannot say how excited I am for our future.

And all though I know that time is short, I never want to waste a minute we have together.

In fifty years, when we’re sitting on our front porch, drinking ice tea and lemonade watching our great-grandkids running around in our yard, I know I’ll look at you and not regret a thing.

Even though we’ve been married just shy of three months, I know that we have one of the strongest marriages around. Sure, we’ll butt heads in future, just as we have in the past. But, that’s half the fun! Because with each disagreement, we learn something new about each other. We are on a never-ending journey that has proven to be fruitful and beautiful.

You are it.